Where were you...

As the  10th anniversary of  9/11  approaches, I am just remembering.
Remembering how I was getting ready for work when I saw the breaking news.  I remember how small the plane looked as it hit the first tower...( not realizing how big the Towers were)
I remember watching the news all day, crying, praying, feeling helpless.
Then weeks later... Alan Jackson said it all.... in a song....

"Where Were You (When The World Stopped Turning)"

Where were you when the world stopped turning on that September day?
Were you in the yard with your wife and children
Or working on some stage in L.A.?
Did you stand there in shock at the sight of that black smoke
Risin' against that blue sky?
Did you shout out in anger, in fear for your neighbor
Or did you just sit down and cry?

Did you weep for the children who lost their dear loved ones
And pray for the ones who don't know?
Did you rejoice for the people who walked from the rubble
And sob for the ones left below?
Did you burst out in pride for the red, white and blue
And the heroes who died just doin' what they do?
Did you look up to heaven for some kind of answer
And look at yourself and what really matters?

[Chorus:]
I'm just a singer of simple songs
I'm not a real political man
I watch CNN but I'm not sure I can tell
you the difference in Iraq and Iran
But I know Jesus and I talk to God
And I remember this from when I was young
Faith, hope and love are some good things He gave us
And the greatest is love

Where were you when the world stopped turning on that September day?
Were you teaching a class full of innocent children
Or driving down some cold interstate?
Did you feel guilty 'cause you're a survivor
In a crowded room did you feel alone?
Did you call up your mother and tell her you loved her?
Did you dust off that Bible at home?

Did you open your eyes, hope it never happened
Close your eyes and not go to sleep?
Did you notice the sunset the first time in ages
Or speak to some stranger on the street?
Did you lay down at night and think of tomorrow
Or go out and buy you a gun?
Did you turn off that violent old movie you're watchin'
And turn on "I Love Lucy" reruns?

Did you go to a church and hold hands with some strangers
Did you stand in line and give your own blood?
Did you just stay home and cling tight to your family
Thank God you had somebody to love?

And the greatest is love.
And the greatest is love.
Where were you when the world stopped turning that September day?
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Now I  remember this,
People died.. people came together... people prayed, and gave, and put others first...
I wish it had never happened.
I hope I never forget.

Organized religion... is so ... organized

Does anyone else ever feel like we get so caught up in church, that, we FORGET.... Church is not a "place we go".. it is a "what we are"?
I suppose this might sound like I am being a malcontent.  I'm not.  I love my church, love going, love the fellowship.  However, ....
Most Sundays I leave feeling... inadequate.. and maybe a little schizophrenic.
I am told God loves me passionately... but if I'm not on top of (whatever the weeks sermon is dealing with) my game..well, I must be a huge disappointment to God.  so He loves me....IF.
I am going out on a huge limb here, and I hope excommunication is not in my future..I am not saying I don't want to be a part of the place I go to worship, but,
sometimes I am so busy going to church... so busy trying to figure out how I can be a better member, so caught up with the inadequecies of my life as a believer.... 
I feel far away from the reason I even went to church to begin with.  (Are you starting to see the psychosis?)
Jesus left us with a new commandment~~~ "love one another, as I have loved you".. "by this people will know you are my disciples, if you love one another" [John 13: 34-35]
Thats it.. love one another. 
He didn't say to organize Sunday school, have more bible studies, show up for every service, have church business meetings,  get everything organized, alphabetized, and so on... (and I am not against any of this per se)
He said "love one another"
I guess what I am really thinking is, if we spent more time loving, and less time organizing religion we might be less frustrated and more productive in our journey. 
Does anyone else have input?... I would love to hear some thoughts..